God's Ideal

I read this entry at a friends blog some time ago and saved it, check it out!

GOD’S IDEAL

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone

to have a deep soul relationship with another,

to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.
But God, says,“No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone, with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to me, with having an intensely personal relationship with me alone,

discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.

You will never be able to unite with another until you are united with Me,

exclusive of anyone or anything else,exclusive of any other desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing,

and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing,

one that you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the very best.

Please allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest thing,

keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM,

keep listening and learning the things I tell you,

you just wait, that’s all.
Don’t worry. Don’t be anxious.

Don’t look around at the things others have gotten or that I’ve given them.

Don’t look at the things you think you want.

You just keep looking at Me, or you’ll miss what I want to show you.
And then, when you’re ready,

I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any you would dream of.

You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready,

(I am working even at this moment to have you both ready at the same time)

until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me,

and the life I prepared for you,

you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me,

and thus the perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love.

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me,

and to enjoy materially and concretely,

the everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love.

Know that I love you utterly.

I am God.
Believe it and be satisfied.”

Jesus Loves You!

Passion V2

So I thought I would continue the passion ramblings..
A verse struck me the other day, Matthew 6:21:

"Where your treasure is, there your heart will be"

and it's sooo true... I guess what I learnt from the things that we desire the most, would probably mean the most to us. I'm the kind of guy that would really be all out to do the things that I like, e.g- jamming, worship leading, futsal'ing, chatting (at times), and it's so easy to get caught up in our own desires that we kind of, miss out what God has planned for us?

I tried to understand what that verse in a different approach, try switching it around and you get "Where your heart is, there your treasure will be"

Now I get back to passion, it all starts from the heart. That's number one. How many of us pray for revival and yet we refuse to lift our hands during worship or allow the Holy Spirit to move in our hearts? Many of us pray for passion and yet we do not attend prayer meetings or encourage our friends to. Now don't give me 'oh I'm like really busy and I can pray back home', There might be some truth in that but how many of us actually do pray by ourselves? It is said in the bible, 'Pray without ceasing' and we would, if we really understand what passion is. There's power in corporate prayer and agreement, 'If two or three are gathered, there He is in our midts'.

Number two, Passion is more caught than thought. Speakers can talk alot about passion but at the end of the day, it's really all about catching the essence and acting apon what you believe. Walk the talk. Don't just talk so much (something I'm learning too!).

So I guess a question to ask ourselves after all this is,

What are you doing about your passion?

Japh

Happy Father's Day!!!

Just a side note, dedicated to all father's out there, especially my dad! and our Big daddy up there!

Happy Father's Day!!

Thank You, Dad for everything! Words alone cannot describe how you have impacted my life, and made me who I am today..

Sorry for the times I have not heeded your advice.. which are very very wise.. I've learnt that!

May God bless you and keep you, may His face shine on you, and grant you peace!

I love You, Dad!

Japh

Passion = Revived

It's so easy to just let our fire dwindle....
Many people fade away after a while, and it seems to increase as we grow up...
In school it's really easy to catch the flame (cf camps, conferences, concerts etc etc)
And it's quite easy to mantain it since you're stuck with ur friends in school for a max 11 years
After that as we enter college... most of us split... make new friends.. adjusting to new environments.. Some people keep their fire up, maintain their friendships, still attend CG's..
As we enter Uni, we find more and more of our friends going overseas... Life gets a little more challenging, tougher.. more deadlines, important assignments.. crazy exams.. It is most likely to be here where one actually decides His faith, whether to maintain it, grow it, or let it die...

Cuz when we actually get out to work, 9-5, reality, bosses, loneliness, relationships, family, finance, jobs and many other things kick in..
An interesting fact in most churches today, many many kids/teens, ok ok number of youths, and then there are the older generation..
Where are the young working adults?
This is true with many churches, including the mega ones

I believe we can change that. And one of the things that really stuck me is Passion. We talk alot about bringing revival, reaching others for Christ, mantaining a relationship with God, which is all really good and important. But how to do those things without having a passion for God?
In this case I'm talking about hunger. When one is hungry, you feed yourself. Same goes for us as christians, most of us do not feed our hunger, maybe we have even built an immunity against feeling it!
How may one feed our spiritual hunger? easy. Pray always. Eat the Word. Heart of Worship.
Sounds cliche? Let me add one more very important factor, fellowship with believers. I believe that when a person is continually in contact with strong christians, there is motivation to mantain a stronger personal relationship. I know you have heard this a zillion times, 'Oh all that matters is your personal walk with God", and this is true! However, how do u do so when u walk with the world? sounds contradictory?
DO u know what struck me? Take our Handphones for example, or internet (MSN, gmail, facebook) etc etc. How many of us can live without our handphones for lets say, 1 week? oh wait, make that a day? or wait, make that a couple of hours? be honest here people, I'm pretty sure you are either having your phone right next to you this very moment or if not, in your pocket!
This is my point. Why do we really treasure our phone or msn? easy. It connects us with people!

Now trade your handphones with the bible. Are you twitching right now? How easy is it to stuff our bibles in our little closets and take it out on sundays for church because 'it's the right thing to do?' How many of us can live without or bible for lets say, 1 week? sure! 2 weeks? yeah most likely i'll survive, 3 weeks? a month? be honest here again. Where is your bible now? err, somewhere in my room? And why do we not treasure our bibles when IT CONNECTS US TO GOD! or maybe we treasure it too much that we don't want to ruin it by openning it?!
It is said, a clean bible does not nessessarily mean a clean christian (and I think u would know why)

Sorry if this hits a nerve or two. Bear in mind I'm also talking to myself many times. Lets get back to passion. Ever heard somebody shout, "YEAH ENGLAND WON! GLORY MAN U! CHELSEA ARSENAL! F1! LETS GO CS! HAVE U SEEN THAT MOVIE?!! and the lists goes on....

now that a deep breath. Ever heard somebody shout, "YEAH MY AUNT GOT HEALED FROM CANCER!, DO U KNOW MY FRIEND RECEIVED CHRIST? HAVE U READ THIS BOOK ABOUT GOD? LET's GO FOR PRAYER MEETING!

again I'm sorry if this hurts a few buttons. Just think for a while. and let me ask this final question...

Where is your passion?

Jesus Loves You.

Japh.

My busy upcoming holidays (workdays more like it)

Yes exams are finally coming to an end.. (well I still have one more paper to go but... weee!!)
Thank YOU GOD for helping me through my papers! (thus far :p)!
Seriously it's been a crazy 2 weeks or so of being stuck in the library TRYING to study (which I somehow managed to do -most of the time :P!)
My first paper was management and I panicked when I entered the hall (finger shaking etc..) but heck I finished it! :O! Second paper was better thanks to all the past year papers and answers! haha.. Third paper done today and for some reason I had TOO much time.. so.. ended up doodling.. hehe.. next up is on tuesday so can blog! Thank You to everybody who has been helping me throughout this period (even asking me to study helps! or bugging me about exams! :P)

All in all I've learnt a few things through this period
1. I study better in the mornings then I do at night (like 8am? hehe)
2. If I sleep less, I can accomplish more work! (like duh.. haha!)
3. An earphone can do wonders (like cutting out distractions! p.s- I'm an audio person, remembers things through sounds)

So yes that's been pretty much sums up my semester, and looking forward to my holidays (if I can call them that!) will be crazier! these are my plans for the holidays...

17th June: Final paper- accounts
18-19th: Go to Inti Nilai for CF drama competition, Stay in Nilai
20th: Get bank account
21: Probably footsal or batminton or rock climbing
22: Church
23-27: Prepare for CF camp // India trip (am doing a presentation in front of a few hundred people? :O!)
28-30th: Monash CF Camp! (STM Seremban)
1st-8th July: India!! (Children In Prayer Conference)
12-13th: CG+ in FRIM! (mountain biking, orienteering, technical tree climbing etc)
14th: Semester two starts................................

Crazy or not?

Probably the reason why I'm doing all this is cuz next semester would probably be nuts anyway, business law, marketing, macroeconomics, money and capital markets.. crazy subjects! and I guess I would be busier (I better be! I've learnt my lesson!), and I should do my homework regularly (yes yes I know...) So I guess my hectic'ness MIGHT end only in November after my finals.. in which I might be going to Australia.... Working in Jan/Feb..... going CG+ again.... paint-balling.... ... ... etc etc...

Never ends eh?

Oh and do get better Chris!! will be praying for you! May God heal you completely!

Here we go again............

Take care u all!

Japh

~Free~ Hillsongs

Would you believe me if I said
That we are the ones who can make a change
In the world today
Would you believe me if I said
That all of the dreams in your heart
Can come through.. today...
Would you believe me if I said
That life could be all that you want it to be.. today...

And if I had wings I would fly
cuz all that I need, You are
And if the world caved in around me
To You I'll still hold on
Cuz You're all that I believe
And the one who created me
Jesus, because of You

I'm free

Would you believe me if I said
That God can make miracles happen today
Would you believe me if I said
That you don't need to wait for the answers before
You step out in faith
Would you believe me if I said
That nothing is ever impossible... for God

Just live your life
With God inside
You won't regret
One moment of it
And give all you can.. for God...

Updated.. again...

Things that have been happening the past week or so...

1. Played in a band performance for Monash Street Carnival (yeah "Unmasked!"), it was a pretty good experiance but took up alot alot of time for practice, jamming sessions etc etc.. Thank God it's actually over.. for now at least.. and I managed to put my electric guitar and effects peddle for some good use.. I'll probably let it rot for a while again..

2. Been serving more in Monash CF, worship led, preperations for Monash CF Camp 2008 are underway! And yes I've somehow been chosen as asst camp commandant and I've only been around for.. 2 months+? Thank God so far everything's been pretty fast and smooth.. Just so u guys know, It'll be on the 28-30th June, at STM Seremban, camp theme= Renovation of the Heart-Psalm 139:23-24, It's gonna be a real fun and the forms should be out soon, recently finished up camp promo video.. Feel free to contact me about more details

3. Studies wise.. only one word.. LAGGING!.. I really really need to catch up on my studies to ensure I don't end up retaking any subjects.. bad testimony u know.. which means no more band practices, idle talk on msn'ing, less tv and facebook etc etc which includes blogging haha.. might cut down on other stuff as well.. ministries and so forth.. I'm must learn to say "NO" to certain work that people offer me.. So whoever reads this post, pls pls don't ask me to handle or lead things cuz.. EXAM'S IN A MONTHS+!!! sigh...


And... I've got an assignment to finish...
take care u all!

Japh

I'm tired Lord... Please Revive me

I'm tired of living a double life
I'm tired of living this lie
I'm tired of putting on this mask

I wanna be real...

Too many obstacles to face
I cannot handle on my own
So I'm asking Lord of You
Grant me patience, strength, and courage too

Help me Lord to go Your way
Help me not to go astray
Cuz this world's a crazy place
But You have made it safe for me

When the time comes for me
to stand up for You
I know You'll be by my side
On my own I'll never make it
But with You, everything is possible

Forgive me Lord for lying, trying to impress others, trying to fit in
Forgive me Lord for doing things out of my own strength, for not trusting in You totally

I surrender my life into Your hands

Only You can satisfy my life.. I know You will pull me through and make me a better person after all this..

Thank You Lord

Have you seen death in the face?

I saw it yesterday.

When I found my uncle in my grandma's house, he was already lying down on the floor, motionless, skin as pale as ever, with a blanket covering him..

My sister was at the scene before he died, he was sitting on the toilet bowl struggling to clean himself. His head was hanging to the side, struggling to breathe and he was drooling, not a good sight...we were guessing it was stroke or heart attack, She wasnt sure. The maid and her helped to carry him out to the living room.

She propped him on my knees and prayed and prayed without stopping. She tried to call an ambulance and 911 was no help at all. When my dad finally managed to get an ambulance and arrived at the house, it was 1/2 hour later. The ambulance took another 1/2 hour to come.

She wasn't afraid, just begging God to give my uncle one more chance. Not so much that we can have him around longer, although that would have been really great, but more so that he can make peace with God.

But it was too late. At one point, the maid kept telling her 'he's gone, he's gone, he's not breathing' and she refused to believe it. She kept saying, no he's ok, he's breathing, like she could will him to live.

The paramedics came and started CPR, and she kept thinking...maybe she could have taken him straight to the hospital, if only she knew how to do CPR properly, if this, if that. But she somehow deep down knew it may not have made a difference. Only God knows when is a person's appointed time, my uncle has cheated death before in a drunk driving accident.

People don't like to be told that heaven and hell is real, that God and Jesus is real. But when you look death in the face, I know it's true. And I may never see him again. Forever.

~I'll Trust You Jesus~ The Sword

Lord when You came into my heart
You gave my life a brand new start
And promised You'd never ever leave

You've kept all the promises You've made
You gave me Your word to light my way
Your Spirit is with me every day

And though the circumstances of this world
would try to get my eyes off you
I'll stand my ground
'cause I know I've found in You, the victory

I'll trust You Jesus
Put my whole life in Your hands
I'll trust You Jesus
On Your Word I'm gonna stand

For every situation that has tried to make me doubt
You've anointed me, given faith to me,
so my Lord I'll trust in You
My Lord I'll trust in You

Jesus, You have called us all to follow after You
And even when it seems there's no way out
I know You'll see us through

There's Freedom in the Name of Jesus!! planetshakers

You saved me, You set me free
You healed me, You made me see
You set me free

You give me, all that I need
You give me, life abundantly
You set me free

All I wanna do
Is praise You
'Cause You have set me free

You're my saviour
You have set me free forever
It is by your grace and power
That You have set me free

You are the way
I will live for You all my days
Never will I hold back my praise
'Cause You have set me free
There's freedom in the Name of Jesus
Freedom from all shame
There's freedom in the Name of Jesys
Freedom from all pain

There's freedom in the Name of Jesus
Freedom from all sin
There's freedom in the Name of Jesus
There's freedom in the Name of Jesus

~a planetshakers album (Free, 07)

How Great Is Our God!!

Location: PDMC - Port Dickson Methodist Centre
Event: Sunway CF Camp

It was a camp worth going, no regrets, the speaker was really good (yeah pst Lee!!), each session had at least 2 hours of hard-core preaching! The cool part was all the campers actually managed to hang on to our seats and learn.. hehe! He thought us about the Kingdom of God, relationships, and end times (super cool stuff!).. and all his five kids are so cute!! and they can memorize scriptures like the whole of Matthew 5! (makes me want to memorize scriptures too! hehe)

Worship was.. good (played guitar for two sessions).. Games was.. good (although I fell down and hurt my back but.. it was good, havent played beach volleyball ever since YWAM hehe ;) The best part for camp for me was actually being able to witness life changing events.. My room mate which I met was a new christian who gave his life to Christ during an easter event not too long ago.. the cool part about him was his testimony of how he gave his life to Chrsit!! If only I could write his whole testimony here it would take up the whole page! haha. To sum it up he came from a broken family but God intervened in his life, sent people to bring him to God and touched him Himself! and although he faced persecution from his family and all, Pst Lee sort of answered all his questions through his sermons (like loving God more than anybody else, including our parents).. and he's testimony actually was the stepping stone for a girl to accept Christ in camp itself!!

Besides having a new salvation at camp (praise God), quite a few others received the baptism of the Holy Spirit and the gift of Tongues! How cool is that!.. It blows my mind thinking of all that God can do with us if we let Him! Also the testimonies from both the Pastor and his wife was realy life changing and challenging.. like trusting in God 100% when faced with decisions and relationships :p *hint hint*

So that kinda sums up camp for me.. besides making new friends and learning alot.. PDMC brought back memories of previous camps I've been to there..

ok ok i'm rushing for class...

laters

Japh

update update update

So.. I'm on a week's break from uni.. thought i'd drop in and say a few words before i dissapear again haha..

Life in Monash is not too bad.. making some friends while serving in the CF.. still pretty frustrated that Monash makes us do everything ourselves.. like download our articles and expect us to present it in class without telling us.. everything has to be done independantly.. i dont even know why we even have lecturers and tutors to teach us in the first place when they dont tell us anything.. "Oh u can get everything online", they say.. it makes it more irritating when u pay about RM 13 K ++ PER semester and u get this !@#$! kind of treatment from them.. what's worse is that some of my lecturers cannot speak english properly.. "relevant" becomes "lelevont" and "correlation" becomes "colllelllation"... half the time I'm trying to figure out what my lecturers are even trying to say.. let alone understand the subject.. my statistics lecturer does not know how to use the mike.. so nobody can hear her.. my management lecturer wants us to give her a good review so that "Monash will look good".. swt!

still among all my complaints... Monash is still ok.. the facilities are awesome.. toilets smell like perfume... If the weather was colder I would say it feels like an Australian campus indeed.. they are quite a handful of international students too..

recently i had to rush an assignment last minute.. (yes typical me).. slept at 4am the night before.. and passed it up 4pm the next day.. so i'm trying to finish some assignments this week.. hopefully.. am also fasting MSN, TV and facebook.. so far i've managed to fast MSN and TV... but.... succumbed..... to...... FACEBOOK! sigh.. mainly due to curiousity, like people tagging my photo's or adding stuff or events.. lol!

besides this, i've stopped my chinese lessons.. mainly cuz nobody at home speaks chinese, so it's really quite sad.. i'm not practicing what i learn.. and my teacher graded me an "extremely limited user".. which is sad.. so there goes my chinese lessons for the time being..

CF has been great... been serving quite a lot already, recently had to worship lead.. and i'm only in my.. fourth week?.. we had an outing the other day in bukit cahaya (shah alam) and till now my legs hurt like crazy.. ouch..

so far my plans are.. not much.. besides survive uni life.. i'm in the midts of cleaning my room.. which is hard trust me... cuz my room used to be my family's library.. which means piles and piles of books.. and passed down from my sister, to me, to my younger sister.. books from standard 1.. till secondary, till college, till university books.. all in my room!! so yes i've packed so far about more than 8 boxes of stuff and still my room looks like it's been bombed!

besides that.. most of my time has been doing house chores lately.. cuz my family got a doggie.. a little beagle which is really destructive.. so it means cleaning up it's poo.. feeding.. bathing etc etc.. not to mention my other household pets (birds, fish etc).. it's good cuz i'm home alone sometimes during the day so can play with doggie ;)

i do plan to go for sunway cf camp! mainly cuz my pastor is speaking (yay pst shaw ming!).. oh ya.. just to let some of u know i've left my church in nilai.. (good ol' semarak revival centre) which i've been attending for the past.. 8 years? so i'm now attending a house church in Subang.. which is great, I love the feeling of a house church (bond and food!)

so... hmm... that's about it for my life now.. quite sad cuz some people who were close to me are all away... (daniel-UK, tim-Aust, chris-Aust) and other people who are busy or non-contactable.. and other people who would be leaving.. so quite sad la..

recently i've joined a band.. which is kind of fun cuz i can express myself.. am using my electric guitar more now.. which is good cuz it was rotting! haha.. have perfomed a bit.. brushing up on some skills while still having to learn lots.. and also training to help out in a youth alpha program which some of us are gonna start in Monash...

sometimes i feel like life would be better if i was in a relationship.. then i keep reminding myself about my vow till 21.. it's hard but.. pressing on! i guess my experiance in ywam (youth with a mission) still keeps me going when i feel down.. looking back at my notes and experiance gives me the extra boost to keep me going.. and I thank God for friends who STILL contact me and encourage me (though it's getting fewer!) haha.

i guess that's about as much as i can think of for now.. am looking forward to going to India in July.. for a children in prayer conference.. meeting up with some of my friends which i met in New York is pretty exciting!

but right now.. it's back to the books...

take care u all

japh

Life continues...

Back to the books.. late night studying... or rather last minute work :)... waking up early in the mornings... listening to boring people blabber in front of the stage.. copying notes.. assignments.. friends bugging u at 3 in the morning..

yep. It's back to student life..

Welcome to Monash!

So far there hasnt been much to do besides attending boring orientations.. ok maybe they arent too boring but it seems to be after not being in college for... 3 months?

Time to be independant and responsible!
Time to be ready for life!

Here It comes!

So come.... by Israel Houghton

You have taken the precious
From the worthless and given us
Beauty for ashes, love for hate
You have chosen the weak things of the world
To shame that which is strong
And the foolish things to shame the wise

You are help to the helpless
Strength to the stranger
And a father to the child that's left alone
You've invited the thirsty to come to the water
And those who have no money come and buy
So come.. So come..

Behold the days are coming for the Lord has promised
When the plowman will overtake the reaper
And our hearts will be the threshing floor
And the move of God we've cried out for will come surely come

And You will shake the heavens and fill Your house with glory
Turn the shame of the outcast into praise
All creation groans and waits for the Spirit and the bride to say
The words that Your heart has longed to hear...

By
Israel Houghton & the New Breed 2007

New years resolution (well.. sort of..)

So at this time of the year it's always fun to come up with a new years resolution although I pretty much have the same resolution every year but oh well...

1. Learn chinese (So far tuition has been ok but failing my ting xie exams hasnt been helping! I've learnt how to pronounce and write my name in chinese though! I rock!)
2. Brush up on my guitaring skills (yes yes my e.guitar has been sitting around rotting and gathering dust! not to mention my under-used effects peddle)
3. Work out (gym's and all havent been my thing but I think I should start before I'm old and wrinkly *tsk tsk)]
4. Serve in Monash CF
5. Eat more veggie's and fruits! lol!
6. Read up the whole bible in a year
7. Catch up on my devotions regularly
8. Clean up my room (here we go again!)
9. Reach out to at least 10 people this year (last year I hit about 6'ish)
10. Remain focused througout the year, shining for God's glory, living life the way God wants me to live!

SO that about summurizes what I would want to accomplish this year, not to mention other personal goals such as waking up before 8am regularly and going for jogs and so on and so forth.. or really extreme dreams such as starting a band or being a professional musician/sporting fella.. I think I would love to write songs if I find the time, and maybe compile an album of my own.. well.. dreams will be dreams unless you wake up and do it ;)

cheers

Thank God he's still alive...............

Time: 6pm+
Date: 9-1-08
Place: Jalan templer road connecting to jalan gasing at jalan 6/29

It was raining after he finished work at the kindergarten at around 5.45'ish, Japh was among the last to leave and locked the office. He cranks up his old Honda Civic and drives away. Mark was beside him, preparing to doze of in the car while waiting for the jamm to subside. The roundabout connecting to Jalan Gasing was blocked by the police..
'drat..' he says to himself, 'nvm i'll turn right at the next intersection'..
It was pretty jamm as he tried to turn right into Jalan 6/29 crossing the yellow box, he inches across slowly.. It was a three lane road, first car stops for him, 'so far so good'.. second car stops..
'ok it should be clear now' and he edges across the intersection..

suddently..

*CRASH*!!

He hits the emergancy brake but it's too late! He reviews his mirrors just in time to see a figure fly across his car boot! The other cars stop immediately. Cars are honking in response. His partner next to him, Mark awakes in shock.

Japh stops his car at the side of the road and dashes out into the street. The figure was lying down on the road. It was a figure of a man. His bike was totally in ruins. Engine and body parts were still flying across the roads as cars pass by, running on them. Mark and another driver helps the man to his feet to bring him to the side of the road. A deep gash could be seen on his right arm. He was hobbling as he struggled to regain consciousness and retrieve his bike from the main road.

Japh stares in horror.. What should he do now? Never had he witnessed an accident such as this. The man begans to call his brother. Should he make a police report? How will the man take such an accident? Will he call up some gang to 'settle' things? ' All sort of thoughts run through his mind as he regains his composure.

'It's time to put on defencive mode', Japh reasons. He approaches the man and defends himself.

'Hey bos, tadi u tidak stop kat yellow box la tu. Kena saya punya car u salah tau mesti bayar. tengok tengok u sudah damage saya punya door. u ada insurance kah? tengok IC dan driving licence?', he demands. Japh pilles on the heat to the poor man who probably was still recuperating from shock. A few moments of heated exchange found none in an advantage position. It was still raining at this point.

They decide to head on the police station to make a police report. Japh prays silently in his heart for protection and for self-control so that he would'nt blow.
'My poor car', he thinks. 'Just got a 1000rm worth of repairs and spraying and this happens!' his anger still spurring. (e.d How selfish!)


They arrive at the PJ police station headquarters and guess what??!!


system jamm.....

computer rosak.....

swt....

Anyway.. cut the story short... they decide to meet the next day. Everything was settled OUTSIDE the polis station. Coughed out RM200 to compensate his injuries a little. Agreed not to make a police report (scared P licence kena gantung le).. Found out the other guy was actually a Sarawakian Christian. Prayed for him at the bus stop opposite the polis station! haha. He was pretty touched and probably really thanking God for keeping him alive..

All in all I think I've learned a valuable lesson out of this..
1. Life is SOOO fragile.. seriously..
2. Sometimes it's hard to be kind and compassionate, it might hurt your wallet and ego, but your reward's in heaven.
3. I received an sms right after the accident.. "If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish motives; Be kind anyway. If you are honest, people may cheat you; Be honest anyway. What you spent years building, someone will destroy overnight; Build anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow. Do good anyway. We can never be able to please or satisfy everyone but in the final analysis, it's between YOU and GOD. It was never between you and anyone anyway, for God has the ultimate say. So why get disappointed, frustrated or fooled? Check yourself this day, am I right with God?
4. I should really learn to be humble and think of others first
5. Seriously pray before you drive and don't fool around. Use signals and drive according to the rules. I really dunno what i would do if the fella had died.. seriously..

So anyway... the car's in the workshop now.. a little phobia of driving already since this is the 2nd official accident that I've been involved in.. although i still blame the other people, maybe it's time to check myself as well.. sigh.. one of the things God has been teaching me through this situations is tolerance, forgiveness and humility.. and maybe i'll end with an encouragement, the next time u see a 'reckless' driver or an accident, before u start saying nasty things, remember that it can happen to ANYBODY. It is God's grace and mercy that we are not dead yet.. seriously.. Stop and Thank God that he's faithful to you. Be a good driver on the roads. We are no better than the other 'reckless' people deserve.

Selah (think about it)

SO...........

yes......... it's time......... to............ update.......... Zzzzzz.......

1. I've received a conditional offer from Monash Sunway to do business and commerce.
2. That was the same day I got my SAM results.
3. Praise GOd for a TER of 82.3!
4. I've officially said bye bye to Inti Nilai!
5. Anybody wants SAM books? look me up!
6. It's still back to work at Madeleine Kindergarten
7. School's started and the working hours have extended to 8am till like 6pm?
8. During those hours at work there's hardly time to go toilet or drink! aiks!
9. Main reason for that is cuz there's 500 kids running ard and their parents to handle!
10. Besides that.... Mandarin classes has been hard.
11. I failed my ting xie (spelling exam).
12. I got 2 correct out of 15 questions!
13. Only the character 'chinese' and 'ni hao ma' i got correct!
14. I had a 50 character chinese essay to do about myself.
15. Not to mention another ting xie exam on next monday
16. I'm suppose to register officially for monash tomorrow (wish me all the best!)
17. It's late and I think I should sleep.
18. Sorry for updating in this format
19. I'm running out of ideas
20. And lazy to type out a proper update.
21. And
22. Well
23. You
24. Get
25. The
26. Idea.
27. Isnt
28. This
29. Irritating?
30. Haha.

take care peeps.

WORK WoRk Work Zzz...

I think most of you guys know that I'm working for a bit while waiting for my SAM results to be released.. After that it'll be University life soon.. time flies so fast huh!

The kindergarten's alright.. most of my work includes filing, new registration, handling parents, data entry, photo sorting, class alocation, office boy.. etc etc... AND boy can it be straining! I mean.. it's not that bad working from 8.30 till 4pm but handling forms and data entry for almost 500 kids!! my eyes hurt from computer screen! and some kids parents can be really annoying!

Recently the office was busy sending out letters to parents to inform them about their kids new class, so u can imagine the work:
1. Key in data in computer
2. Extract address and new class and parents names for each form
3. Double check their addresses with their new forms (400+ forms mind u!)
4. Print out classes by classes (about 12+ classes)
5. Fold letters, paste stamp and post 400 letters

I wonder how my parents run this business actually.. I mean, they have to face annoying parents, incompetent staff and teachers, 500 kids running around.. EVERY DAY!
Come to think of it i'm actually glad I'm helping out for a while.. It awakes me to the reality of life, learning to be disciplined and organised, not to mention cautious and patient!
To answer most of your questions, NO i do not get paid, I'm volunteering myself to help out, but I have no complains though.. driving a car and going to University is payment enough! haha

Besides work and all.. Life after my Inti Nilai experiance has been great.. Being close to home in PJ means more time to hang out with the gang! Futsal guys (mcd, chris, ant, tim etc etc), had a supprise birthday party and welcome home for Chris Teo and boy was that an interesting experiance..

The plan was this.. Wei Chin and Su Yi was suppose to gather everyone to meet at Williams (a high class mamak) in taman megah at 7pm that day.. I was in charge of "stalling" Chris until that time to go for dinner.. SO I called Chris that day to go for Batminton at 5'ish and later for dinner.. the other guys werent free so it was just me, my sis and him and guess what, NO MORE COURTS!!.. swt.. so i had to stall him for over 1 hour!.. drove around.. went to wei chin's apartment:
Me: Hey chin! there's no more courts, i'm with chris, we're outside ur apartment, can visit u ah?
Chin: Psst, is chris listening?
Me: err no.. he's behind in the car
Chin: cannot la u! suyi's with me! (i think they had a cake there or something)
Me: OOPS.... k nvm bye (puts down the phone)
Chris: was that wei chin? what did she say?
Me: err.. she's busy to layan us, watching TV (HAHA!)

SO i devised a cunning scheme, go to canaan land and stay there as long as possible.. worked for 20 minutes, still half an hour to go.. drive really.. really.. slowly.. park at my house and waited in the car.. THE WHOLE TIME we were talking about God, churches, hearing God's voice, the young generation, planetshakers, (I was praying that he wouldnt suspect anything! haha)
After that I think he was a bit restless and said we should go makan now.. So i drove around again.. SLOWLY! purposely missed a couple of turnings (well i purposely missed my turnings all the way to Damansara Utama from taman megah (imagine that!) and we were still talking about God, devotions, christianity against other religions, denominations.. etc.. the worse part was the whole time people were sms'ing me and calling about 'the party'.. zi jie la!
Jie: Hey japh, you coming for chris party right? you guys here edy anot? where r u guys?
Me: err.. err... psst.. can u call wei chin ah?
Jie: huh, why call her, where r u?
Me: err.. go go call wei chin, psst.. not there yet! (puts down phone)
Chris: who was that? why call wei chin?
Me: err.. that was jie, i think he wanted to ask wei chin something! (HAHA!)

cut the story short, we arrived when everbody was there! it was a great supprise, he didnt guess anything! and we had a wonderful time reuniting with the old djcf gang.. long live cfsmkdj!!
So anyways.. that's about it for now.. besides waiting for my results on the 20th, Monash open day on the 16th, College camp on the 20-23rd in peaceheaven, and church youth camp on now actually.. reading through the whole bible in 70+ hours (crazy huh?)

Till then. it'll be more filing and data entries and dealing with lil kiddies at work..

ciouz!

kids kids and more kids...

So the other day Mua, Mcd and Chris (who's back from melbourne) went to help out in a kids conference/workshop at SSMC organised by NECF.. well I kinda volunteered to help and dragged those two dudes in.. muahaha.. it was great catching up with those two people again.. they are like my really close friends back in high school.. (the lamers!! long live cfsmkdj!).. and it's amazing that we got this opportunity to be helpers at a KIDS conference! i mean.. we're like kids ourselves! haha!

So on tuesday night we had like a preperation and planning session.. It was quite last minute honestly and we didnt really know what we were suppose to do.. found out we had to lead stations.. like there's four stations in which kids rotate around and pray and games and stuff.. the theme was THUMB, tribals, hindus, unreligious, muslems, and buddhist.. and we were teaching these kids about these religions and people groups to pray for and open up their minds to missions work.. i got tribals as my station, chris got muslems, and mcd (the paedofile! 'he loves kids'), got the unreligious station..

Wednesday was the real thing.. and it was from 9am till 4pm (tiring betul!), there were about more than 50 kids to handle while the adults had their meeting with this awesome speaker from Australia, Jane Mackie!.. It was really supprising to work with children, some of them were actually really smart and could answer questions that we didnt even know about! (how embarasing!) We really enjoyed ourselves, telling kids about the different people and religions around the world and getting them to have a heart of prayer and missions towards them while playing some games and activities as well.. and getting our thumbs dirty making thumbprints on each others bags ;)

In the afternoon was a combined pratical session with the kids and adults, Jane Mackie did a really awesome job getting us to do a couple or processes
1. Get rid of all the junk (like being honest and confessing our sins)
2. Make God our priority (like putting away all distractions and focus on God)
3. Forgive one another (make peace and love each other)
4. Praise and Worship and kick the devil away
5. Invite the holy spirit
6. Get our hearts and mind to focus on God
7. Listen the voice of God

Step 7 was the best of all! Jane Mackie got all the kids to lie down and listen to the voice of God, some saw visions, some saw dreams, some felt that God was telling them things, but the best was one little girl who felt that God was confirming that she will be a missionary in China when she grows up (like walau-eh!!!) imagine that! God can really speak to little children with childlike faith! For me personally I had a picture of a communication device and felt that God was telling me to 'tune' in to Him and cut out all distractions from the world.. wow

After that a map of Malaysia was laid out and the kids were told to surround Malaysia, the youths then surrounded the kids and finally the adults surrounded the youths, half the room were told to worship while the other half prayed out loud and switch turns.. WOW God's presence just took over and many just stood there weaping for our nation! imagine me, chris and mcd too were just pouring our hears out for our government, the children and youths in our land.. the adults were repenting of their sins of neglecting raising up a praying generation.. and the adults were blessing the younger generation.. finally in return we ended with the kids blessing and praying for the adults! (full on!!)

All in all.. I've learnt ALOT from this experiance.. like the power of being open and honest to God and other people, letting Him speak to you.. and that we can be 'dangerous people'! when we're with clean hands and a pure heart.. and have a childlike faith to believe God and obey what he says! wow. Besides that it was a good time catching up with some old friends like pei wern, jamie and liang.. well we visited them after our meeting...

Ok ciaoz. I tried to think of something inspiring to end this post but its not working. Till next time.

Interesting Moments 2

so.. this is an answer to those asking.. "Oh so what will you be doing now? which college r u going to? bla bla..

Well.. let me tell you another story..

Time: After final exam, wednesday 21/11
Place: Somewhere in the forest in Mantin (on d way to seremban)

So after a long year of SAM and finishing up the finals, dealing with all kinds of stuff including the cat story which is below, Japheth decides to spend three days alone with God in a forest, without food, just water.. and what a better place than the prayer land in mantin, which has a couple of cabins in a forest which has like ponds and waterfall, and lots of bugs. So with just him, a guitar, bible, couple of books to pass time, he heads of to spend some time with God.

Day 1: Unloads stuff, checks out cabin (eww bugs), checks out window (eww lizzard), checks out the pond (eww it's infested with water lilies).. "oh come on city boy! you can do it" he tells himself. He got stuck up the hill for some time cuz there were some geese that came out of nowhere.. and mind you, there were like heaps of em! like 5? *honk honk... Did devotion at night, read some chapters, wrote a long note to God and slept (ok so far so good)

Day 2: woke up in the morning.. toilet full of bugs.. *persevere persevere.. haha.. no food (fasting remember?) He gets up, starts reading some books. Sang songs in between.. Finished reading 3 whole books before falling asleep in his room. Wakes up.. *growl* "ah.. hungry.. but cannot eat.. fasting.. takes a gulp of water.. "This is a delicious meal (takes another gulp of water)".. by the 2nd night he couldnt take it anymore.. So he approached one aunty who was staying there:

J: Hi auntie, can pray for me ah?
A: Yes boy, why what's wrong?
J: err... weak la
A: haiya, normal la for people who first time fast so long.. sure weak one.. normal la, go drink water
J: err.. ok
(mum calls Auntie)
M: hey how's my son doing?
A: err.. weak.

Through God's grace he survived through the second night, and got his answer, he felt that God was laying down a couple of options for his future, these included college, bible school, ywam, or work. God was saying 'choose and I'll bless you' kind of thing, but he was insistent that God were to show a clear path and speak to him. He couldnt sleep until 5.30am that night.. tossing and turning until he decided to just wake up and say "Ok God, I know you want to tell me something so do tell me so I can sleep" he said. And it was at that point where God said "if you put your hands on the plow, don't look back", he felt that God wanted him to continue his studies and get a degree before taking the next step. So he drew lots, and college came up again.. and he slept peacefully until like 11.30am..

So that's the ending of the story.. moral of the story, God can speak to anybody if they are desperate enough to seek Him. Even through drawing lots (hey that's how the disciples chose matthias!). God honours those who spend time seeking Him.. and it's really worth it in the end, little bit of sacrifice is all we need..

So yes I'll be going to university next year.. most probably monash malaysia, hopefully!! and probably doing economics since I love it ;) their CF rocks!.. and while waiting, I will be working for a bit in my parent's kindergarten and chilling out! (futsal anybody?)! ;) so do keep in contact!!

ciouz!

Interesting moments......

Well.. it's after my exams.. so I guess it's an appropriate time to check in an update.. yes yes I know it's about time! haha.

Nothing much has been happening since finishing up my last paper for SAM, besides leaving Inti and my friends in nilai (GOODBYE INTI!!) p.s- to everyone who is considering colleges, DO NOT GO TO INTI!!!) muahaha.. reason number 1: inti's lecturers suck. seriously. 2. environment in nilai is seriously dead boring. 3. students there have a cincai tidak apa/ lazy attitude.. which means no mood to study. 4. call me and i'll blabber more. haha

no la it's not that bad really.. just didnt like my year there much.. I do admit I had moments where i cherished the peaceful environment and being able to share the good news with a couple of friends and made some great friendships.. but academic wise.. it sucks. haha (sorry for being evil!)

anyway.... oh i have a story to tell while i was doing my exams.. it goes something like this...

Time: 1.30am, night before economics finals
Place: Japheth's room

'it was a dark and gloomy night.. Japheth puts his books away and yawns 'oh well, it's just economics', he mentions. suddently he hears a faint cry.. like the sound of a baby's wail. "It's probably the neighbours", he thinks to himself and yawns again. The sound of the cry was getting annoying, it has been there for the past one hour or so.. Surely a baby cant be crying that long without the parents attending to it? oh well.. must be a cat then.. stupid cats!

He packs up his books and gets ready for bed, brushes his teeth and takes a dump. Wait. 'Is it just me or is the crying exceptially louder in the toilet?', he ponders. He tries to listen for the direction of the sound.. It seems to be coming from every direction... downstairs? my sisters room? outside the hall? behind my house?' thoughts start coming in his mind.. "maybe it's some robbers decoy to get me out of my house and attack me!!" but no.. he must be strong! It's scary enough living by himself in a big house all alone in Nilai..

He opens up the connecting door of the toilet to his sisters room, yes the sound was really loud! but how? could a cat have entered into the house and wandered upstairs? eesh.. it's so late at night! and he has exam the next day!!

He turns on the light and listenes for the sound. It appears to be coming out of the bottom bunk of his sisters double decker bed.. He takes a peek.. a big black cat stares at him with evil eyes.. grrrrr... He jumps back.. whoa.. wat d? he peeks again, there were at least 3 kittens crying by their mum...

Flashback. Japheth recalls the day when he began to hate cats, It was a bright and sunny day. Their family had gone visiting another house which had a cat as a pet.. being small and playful at that time, japheth decides to play with cat, poking and disturbing the cat when all of a sudden it happens, *slash!!* and the cat reaches out its paw and slashes japheth in the eye.. since then, japheth detest cats and would chase after them with every weapon possible, slippers, glass, football, bricks, stones.. etc.

Back to story. Japheth is stunned. He does not know what to do.. slowly.. he reaches for his phone and dials his dad's number. (bear in mind it's about 1.45 in the morning). "Dad Dad! there's a cat in debbie's room!! what should I do what should I do?? help!!" he screams. "Wait, speak to your mum" his dad replies sleepily. "Mum Mum!! there's a humungous black cat in debbie's room!! what should I do what should I do?" he screams again. After scolding him and giving him a long lecture about keeping the doors and windows close, and rebuking every evil spirit from the black cat, his mum says, "Just get rid of it and sleep la, aiyo".

It's all up to him for now.. He opens the lights in the house and gets some milk and water.. "Maybe I can coax them out the door", he thinks. He opens the main door and heads upstairs.. The mother cat still growls at him.. drat. time for plan B. He heads downstairs again to find some food. "Do cats eat breakfast biscuits?" he wonders.. "Oh well, no harm trying".. While heading towards the room, he sees the black cat peering out the door.

*swish* the cat bolts past the door and heads into... MY ROOM!!! "AHHH GET AWAY GET AWAY!!" he squeels. The cat flashes out the room and runs down the stairs, heads towards the main door and dissapears into the darkness abandoning her kittens.. oh well.. at least the big cat's gone.. now for the kittens. He calls his friend, (almost 2am in the morning), "hey, there's a bunch of kittens in my house, how do I get rid of em?", "Well, here's what you should do, get a cloth and a clock, put the cloth on top of the clock and put the kittens on em..". "WHAT?, how would that help?". "The ticking of the clock would feel like the heartbeat of the mother". "Ok".

the things I have to go through at 2 in the morning before a final exam.

Anyway.. fast forward the story.. the kittens were put outside his house and stayed there the whole day without moving much.. flies were coming.. He had to do something.. So he wraps them up and goes to his neighbour down the street.. "Hi Auntie, do you want some kittens? they came into my house last night". "EWW GROSS!! throw them away! wrap them in a plastic bag, tie it tight tight and drive far far away and throw those pests!! EWW GROSS!!"

So much for having kind hearted neighours.. So yes I did just that.. cruel as I must.. haha!!

So that's pretty much what's been happening.. till my next update.. ciouz!!

Back In Action.. for now ;)

Hey Peeps, to those who actually find their way to my blog:

Firstly, SOOOOO sorry for not updating for so long, I know I promised to update my ywam trip which has been like over a year overdue.. and I guess some of you would probably be wondering how was NY (if you knew I was there anyway)..

In any case, I'm back again, missing the action here because of trials exams, and catching up all that I missed from college when I was away.. Exam stress.. why did I choose SAM? *sniff* anyway I've just finished my trials and am a on a one week raya break so... here I am again..

I guess some of you are wondering what happened in NY, ok I shall not be selfish and tell it as it is.. NY isn't that great.. SERIOUSLY! It is messy, dirty, full of people, buildings, cars, everything!! It's a concrete jungle out there esspecially in downtown Manhattan, the only place to breath is in Central Park, which is some greens right in the middle of a supercongested modern city. In any case I wasn't there on a holiday so I guess I'll start with my experiance in the conference I attended:
That's a view of the typical NYC
That's the UN headquarters

It was great being among so many people from all around the world praying for the UN and other world issues.. It felt like such an honour to be among world prayer leaders from like 50 other nations representating their respective countries.. Basically I was there because my parents are involved with international children in prayer, and they wanted some children intercessors, and I'm considered still a kid so.. yay! Me and my sis got together some of the kids from south africa, australia, US, egypt, canada, guatemala, and we just started praying, with no plans or anything, God just took over and we started repenting and interceeding for nations.. Amazing!

Some of the main events that happened there was having our conferences in the UN conference hall, like right in the United Nations building, surrounded by security personal and ambassadors.. syiok nya! It felt super grand like being able to sit in the same hall as all these important people.. The pic below is fake btw, (hey can't the malaysian have some fun?) SS!


That's me reading some UN development goal in front of everybody.. aiks!

Another key event was praying going for a prayer cruise and praying for manhattan city, bronx, brooklyn and other issues while cruising on a boat, with an on board worship team and people from different nations.. amazing! Also we were at ground zero (sept 11 attack scene btw) on sept 11, 2007 and just praying for that area and the people affectedThat's a view of Manhattan Island from the cruise

Ok at least I got a shot at the statue of Liberty for you guys to see.. neh..

This a shot outside ground zero after the sept 11 attacks, notice the fence behind the gifts as NY is buiding up 5 new buildings to replace the loss ground of the twin tower, this includes an even taller tower called 'freedom tower'.. crazy people.We stayed in a place called the New York School of Urban Ministry (reminds me of ywam)

You have to see NY at night...

Kids from all over the world!!

Signing of at the United Nations Headquarters (gosh I look so unprofessional!- check out the messy attire)

All in all.. it was a great trip, Praise God!

P.S- to the chocolate fans, NYC is the place where M&Ms and Hersheys headquarters are! (and that's my sister btw if you were wondering.. )

More than enough......

All of You is more that enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
and all I have in You is more than enough

You are my supply
My breath of life
Still more awesome than I know
You are my reward
Worth living for
Still more awesome than I know

More than all I am
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me
More than all I know
More than all I can say
You are more than enough.....

NYC!!

Well.. I'm writing this before I fly to NYC (New York City for those who don't know) on Thursday and be gone for a week +. Firstly, I think I'm gonna dread the flight.. I mean who wants to fly for over 20 hours?? But I HOPE to finish the New Testament in the plane ;) Of course with all the distractions of movies and all.. hmm...

I think I havent told most of you why I'll be going there.. Firstly, NO it's not a holiday, neither am I thinking of studying there, not visiting relatives or anything.. It's actually a Prayer Initiative @ the United Nations by a joint effort of the International Prayer Council and World Vision. In other words, a prayer meeting at the UN headquarters for a few days including a prayer @ ground zero on Sept 11 and a prayer cruise. So I'll actually be not so free...

So anyways.. would appreaciate prayers, cuz I'm actually suppose to go pray on stage and represent youth's in prayer or something I'm not sure.. aiks aiks.. Until I come back with pictures and hopefully lots of lil gifts.. ciouz....

Jesus You are.........

So many things to be done.. so little time... random thoughts.. Song written by Japheth ;)

God, help me realise that Life on earth is more than this...
I try and try, yet changes never come
Could I suffer any more, won't you help me please
not my will, but yours be done.....

Sitting alone in this corner
I reflect what you've done for me
give me the self-control, the will power
to live a life that I was meant to be

What must I do to break free?
To honour You, for You are worthy...
Give me the strength, to worship thee
More of You, less of me...

Cuz Jesus You are
More than the air I breath, the song I sing
Jesus You are
My only hope, My everything

Victory is found in You my King
As I seek You I shall find You
For You promised freedom, not just a fling
If I would obey and honour You in all I do

the message of a child.....

A beautiful story.. enjoy... taken from some book or devotional material (forget which one hehe)

We were the only family with children in the restaurant. I sat Josh in a highchair. Suddently Josh squealed and said, "Hi there". He pounded his hands on the high-chair tray and wriggled and giggled with merriment. I looked around and saw the source of his merriment. It was a man with a tattered rag of a coat, dirty, greasy and worn. His pants were baggy with a zipper at half-mast and his toes poked out of would-be shoes. His shrit was dirty and his hair uncombed and unwashed. His whiskers were too short to be called a beard and his nose was so varicosed it looked like a road map. We were too far from him to smell him, but I was sure he smelled. His hands waved and flapped on loose wrists.

"Hi there, baby. I see ya, buster," the man said to Josh. My husband and I exchanged looks that said, "What do we do?" Everyone in the restaurant noticed and looked at us and then at the man. The old geezer was creating a nuisance with my beautiful baby. Our meal came, and the man began shouting across the room, "Do ya know patty-cake? Do ya know peekaboo? Hey, look, he knows peekaboo."

Nobody thought the old man was cute. He wa obviously drunk, My husband and I were embarrased. We ate in silence, all except for Josh, who was running through his repertoire for the admiring skidrow bum who in turn recipracated with his cute comments.

We finally got through the meal and headed for the door. My husband went to pay tge check and told me to meet him in the parking lot. The old man sat poised between me and the door. "Lord, just let me out of here before he speaks to me or Josh," I prayed. As I drew closer to the man, I turned my back trying to side-step him and avoid any air he might be breathing. As I did, Josh leaned over my arm, reaching with both arms and in a baby's pick-me-up position. Before I could stop him, Josh had prapelled himself from my arms to the man's.

Suddently a very smelly old man and a very young baby consummated their love relationship. Josh, in an act of total trust, love and submission laid his tiny head upon the man's ragged shoulder. The man's eyes closed, and I saw tears hover beneath his lashes. His aged hands, full of grime, pain and hard labour, gently, so gently cradled my baby's bottom and stroked his back. No two beings have ever loved so deeply for so short a time. I stood awestruck. The old man rocked and cradled Josh in his arms for a moment, and then his eyes opened and set squarely on mine. He said in a firm commanding voice, "You take care of this baby." Somehow I managed to say "I will," from a throat that contained a stone. He pried Josh from his chest unwillingly, lovingly, as though he were in pain. I received my baby, and the man said, "God bless you, ma'am, you've just given me my Christmas gift." I said nothing more than a muttered thanks.

With Josh in my arms, I ran for the car. My husband was wondering why I was crying and holding Josh so tightly, and I was saying, "My God, my God forgive me." I had just witnessed Christ's love shown through the innocence of a tiny child who saw no sin, who made no judgement... a child who saw a soul, and a mother who saw a suit of clothes. I was a Christian who was blind, holding a child who was not. I felt it was God asking, " Are you willing to share your son for a moment?" when He shared His for eternity. The ragged old man, unwittingly, had reminded me that to enter the kingdom of God, we must become as little children...

"Let the little children come to me, and do not forbid them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." Mark 10:14-15...

Holiday or Work??

Well.. SO far the holiday hasnt been much of a holiday at all.. have been up and running.. so many events happening.. I'm just glad it's all over.. phew! wait.. college's starting again.. oh man!

Let's see, first there was the church camp, 4 days 3 nights, was involved in the worship team, drums and bass.. for those who have been to my church before you would know that the worship session normally goes for two hours :0! (imagine carrying a bass guitar for two hours!!)
Also there was childrens intercession and I was helping my parents handle some sessions, lead worship, play guitar.. these kids are awesome! really smart and sharp @ catching the fire and praying for people! power-packed indeed!

Then there was the national childrens in prayer conference 2007 for two days, in which my parents were the speakers for the workshops, and me and my sisters are involved too, leading worship, doing skits, action songs, speaking, story telling? aiks! There were about 800 kids there and we were leading the 4-6 year olds (the hardest bunch!!) which totalled to about 150+ kids running around *faints! Thank God it went smoothly and the kids were touched (I hope ;)

Then there was the media production team from South Africa, from a organisation called media village, associated with YWAM (go YWAM!!) who was in Malaysia to film children in prayer around Malaysia, ended up following them down to Johor, Labis to film an orphanage kids (pretty cool stuff they have 24/7 prayers!, and the kids can speak like 4/5 languages!, imagine chinese kids praying in tamil! awesome!)
SO anyway I ended up being the BOOM SWINGER! (a.k.a mike holder boy), basically holding up the really cool rifle mikes on a stick to catch sounds (you know, movie making stuff) and it was tiring i tell u!
We also filmed in a group called the Wall Joint in KLCC, where a bunch youths did the 30 second kneel down @ the park (pretty cool stuff!)

Besides these events, the preperation, travelling esspecially to Johor, PD, Nilai, PJ.. I didnt even get to celebrate my birthday (sorry to those people to tried to call but couldnt get through!!)
(sorry chris!!) haha I just found out that a really cool friend studying in Australia spent like 5 AUD trying to reach my voice mail! sowwie!

AND when finally it all ended, and I came back to PJ, guess what? My sister calls me;
Sarah: Hey bro, get changed, there's an emergancy, somebody's manifesting and is demon possesed, we gotta go and pray for them.
Japh: Me? you want me to go? (jumps flat on my bed)
Sarah: Yes you! You have the power in you, quick get up!
here we go again....

Praise God for my mum (power house/radar/demon buster), and of course the holy spirit for the victory! everything went smoothly although I admit I was shivering @ first! It was like, eye opening (whoa!) and seriously shows that the spiritual world is seriously real and we have to constantly be on guard and connected to the power source (holy spirit!)

Well.. It's almost back to college for now.. Holidays has been well spent, another semester awaits.. It's crazy to know that in about two weeks time I'll be heading for New York, the UN headquarters and ground zero to pray with some people for a week! Super excited! except for the long flight.. blek!

And btw, next week on the 31st is gonna be the ex-djcf'ers reunion @ japh's house! 12 noon guys! hope to see u guys there! ciouz!

Memories....

Birthdays always bring memories..

for mine.. let's say so far each year has been different.. at exactly this time last year.. I was in an aeroplane, flying from Australia to Singapore back to KL on Singapore airlines.. back from YWAM and a journey of a lifetime at missions in India and Bible school in Brisbane..

The year before.. was @ SMKDJ, after stepping down as V.prez of djcf, after a whole year of fun and experiance being in dj school and cf, friends and all for all these years..

This year, is different.. there's no celebration yet.. nope nothing so far.. I'm back in PJ helping my mum and dad prepare for church camp and some children in prayer conference which my parents are handling.. there's nothing much to celebrate too, awaiting results for my semester in college, the only gift i got so far is from my younger sister debbie (Love you heaps!).. my future is still quite unclear at the moment.. time is passing so fast.. i've got some calls from some friends.. maybe 3?

it's 2.15am...

It's funny how some people don't treasure the little things in life.. forwarded emails saying that 'oh i'll be there for you', 'some people will walk in and out of your life but i will always be there', kinda thing? the next thing you know, they're gone off somewhere and lost contact...

I appologize if I've failed to be a friend to all of you guys.. many times I forget birthdays esspecially (oops!) I do try and I will try harder from now on to really appreaciate all of you out there!

hmm.. reflect reflect..

Watch for my next post which should be out soon.. the long awaited missions stories from me will be out real soon! (so sorry for delaying a year!) I've finally learned to post pictures lol! how do i post clips btw? hehe!

to be continued, Japh's YWAM journey..................

Survival...

The other day I visited Monash CF with McD and May, had a pretty good time there.. I really really admire their CF president, the one and only Khoo Hsien Liang!! a.k.a djcf legacy! (Long Live DJCF!!) cuz of his passion and heart in serving God. While waiting for the speaker to arrive liang gave a couple minutes speech on the importance of prayer and how the CF functions and succeed only through prayer..

He told about sunway monash CF testimony of having committee meetings simultaniously with a bunch of people praying alongside while the meetings was happening, and having full-on prayers before any meetings started.. What really encouraged me was even when I came into CF that day there was a bunch of people at the back upholding and praying for the meeting ahead (cool stuff!!)

They even meet 3 times a week for prayer, if i'm not mistaken one of their prayer meetings is in the morning from 8am (Whoa!!) and they even have a PI - prayer and intercession core group which meets to pray weekly.

the results? well there was this time when monash was having a ball/prom thingy and the organisers were planning of including condoms into the goodie bags for everybody (What the?), and the CF stood against this.. At first the CF got many firings from many people even from the organisers and even from other christians! (tsk tsk!), many opossed the CF stand and even christians were asking the CF to back out of this.. what did the cf do? they started praying!!

After some weeks of intense prayer like a few times a week, liang got an email, the head of the catholic society has heard of the CF stand and wants to join with the CF in pertitioning against the condom issue (Whoa!!), after that, the head of the Buddhist society joined, followed
by the Islamic society.. At the end, the organisers decided not to have the condoms placed in the goodie bags (how cool is that?!)

Liang then started to get on a more serious note..
"If you guys stop praying, the CF would crumble..."
"This is my last semester as CF president, and it would break my heart if you guys stop praying.."
"The moment you guys think you know it all, have enough resources and ideas to run CF and forget about prayer, you guys are heading for a fall.."

Whoa..

I began to think about my own CF in inti nilai.. Seriously guys we need to get back to prayer and into a deeper more intimate relationship with God! the moment we think we can handle it alone, have more and more activities and forget about God, we're done for! Activities and programs, parties, BBQs, camps, hanging out, fellowshipping, mamaking, and all are great! but what matters at the end is how close you are with the father! without Him, everything fails!

One person told me this and I totally agree:
"take away all the activities, take away CF programs, take away fellowship meetings, but never ever take away prayer from the CF"
"Prayer is the backbone of CF, it holds everything together"

I'm writing this particularly to a person who once questioned me why have prayer meetings when prayer can be done in the solitude of your own room. Do you even pray in your own room? Do you even pray for others as you live through life? Do you know the power of corporate prayer and praying in one voice? Do you see changes in your live that you can testify?

I'm sorry if this post would affect any particular group of people, but I just want to challenge you guys, If you can spend hours and hours having 'fellowship meetings and other activities', why can't you spend just an hour or so in prayer meetings?

ok ok I shall stop preaching for now.. ;)

God bless!

What we do in life echoes in eternity, Live a life that reflects God's glory!

age of stealth....

recently i've been checking out command and conquer 3, tiberium wars.. looking at all the technology and weapons, I'm actually convinced that one day another world war is going to happen (ok maybe not with aliens and monsters) but among nations and people groups.. Techonogical advancements have increased greatly to the extend that modern stealth fighters can drop bombs at enemy territory and fly away undetected (like what's the deal with that??), now there's even continent to continent missales, satelite and radar guided missales, nuclear technologies, smart bombs which can think for themselves, and future stealth scientist are actually looking into making stealth fighters actually look invisible to the human eye with some chemical polymer technology thingy.. looking back at the C&C 3 game, it'll be no suprise that we'll someday see robots fighting robots, even the F22 raptors in C&C generals are actually REAL LIFE stealth fighters produced right now in the US and even Japan is trying to purchase them.

Biblicaly (ok i'm not trying to be spiritual here) the bible does talk of an end time warfare, where nations will team up against Israel and God's people. Remember the vision where John talks about weird looking monsters with fire shooting out of their mouths? beasts with many wings, mighty tail, a few heads and such? I personally believe that some of those 'beast' are actually modern day fighters that John had no clue about, I mean, imagine living in bible times, and having a vision of a helicopter shooting rockets... like what the?

People, we ARE living in end times.. time is running fast, wars are happening, super powers are forming, the chip (micro-chip that can be inserted in people) is already in production, nuclear techonoligies are advancing, precious minerals and resources are getting more scarce, human greed is increasing, the world is getting more populated, disasters occur daily.. something is happening to earth people!!

yet.. what are we as Christians doing? "oh i plan to go to college, get a degree, find a job, get a stable income, get a house and car, get married, have kids, live life to the max, and rest in peace..."
sounds selfish? people are dying every day with a Christless eternity, ultimate doom..

Jesus himself said, "the harvest is ripe, but the labourers are few".. It's time to break out of the norm.. it's time for freedom! play time is over, 70+ years of living is very very very short!
what we do in life echoes in eternity... live a life that reflects God's glory...

Your will, not mine.. be done

Amazed ~ Desperation band

You dance over me
While I am unaware
You sing all around
but I never hear the sound

Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
How you love me

How wide
How deep
How great is Your love for me

make ur daddy proud....do the things He loves!

ONe of the things that struck me while I was doing some stuff today.. am I glorifying my heavenly Father by doing this? Is He proud of what I'm doing today? Is there a smile on His face today?

This hit me.. so many times we fail to shine, we fail to live out our lives for HIm.. We fail to make a difference.. Are we doing the things that He loves, or break His heart... Are we crucifying Him time and time again with our actions and words?...

think a moment....

When was the last time you spent quality time with God, poured forth your struggles to HIm, cried your heart out, worshiped till tears, prayed until something happened, heard God's voice, reached out to somebody in need, showed God's loved to the person you hate...

Let me take 5 minutes of your time to tell you a story my sister wrote some time ago:

He waited patiently at the restaurant, glanced at his watch and sighed... The waiter approached him and asked,
"Sir, would you like to take your order first? It has been half an hour since you've been here"
"No thank you", said the finely dressed man 'She'll come in a while, maybe she's delayed today"..
He looked out the window and sighed again.. The waiter shrugged his shoulder and went his way

The clocked chimed nine times, the waited once again approached the man and said,
"Sir, it's already 9'o clock and getting late, are you sure you don't want to order ahead?"
"Maybe just a coffee", replied Him "I'm pretty sure she is coming soon, I really believe in her, I just can't wait to spend time with her, listening to her day, gazing at her beauty and telling her how much I love her", the man said. The waited once again shrugged his shoulders and went to get the order of coffee, "What a irresponsible girl", the waiter thought, "She should be fortunate to be with a fine understanding and loving man like that", thought the waiter further.

By ten'o clock the waiter was frustrated, for the man was constantly looking out the window and sighing with a heavy look on His face yet with such hope that the girl he loved was coming.
"Sir, it's 10'o clock, and we will be closing soon, I feel thatwhoever the girl you're waiting for does not deserve such a fine man as you, for you have waited patiently for her for so long, what's so special about her that you would'nt even eat until she comes? I notice this is not the first time she's done this to you as I remember seeing you here for the past few nights and she always never appears"

A tear fell from the man's eyes.
"You don't understand", the man said. "I love her so much that I would give my all for her, yes she has not been coming for the past few nights but that will never stop the love I have for her",.. he wiped a tear from his eye. "Thanks for the coffee", the young man paid the bill and gave the waiter a tip and got up from his seat. With another sigh, the man walked off into the darkness.


*yawn* She flungs open her room door and dashes for her bed.
"What a great day I've had today", she mentioned, "Gosh I'm so tired and worn out after going out for a birthday party and an awesome movie", she yawns again.
The clock chimes at 11pm.
"Oh no!", thought the girl, "I promised God I would spend time with Him at 8pm!"
"Well, God knows I'm really really tired after a great time today, I'm sure He understands ;)"
and She drifted off to a nights rest.

Ultimate Life Goals!!

1. To learn Chinese
2. Pick up another language (spanish?)
3. Save more souls!
4. Learn another instument (violin? ooo;)
5. Long-term missions
6. Invent something
7. Learn proper cooking (french culinary arts?)
8. Mantain a healthy lifestyle, build muscles, clean room? hehehe
9. Travel around the World in a band writing songs and performing!
10. Get to heaven and accomplish God's will on earth...

FuTure in GoD's hand!!!

not sure who wrote this song but it's a beautiful song

My Jesus, I'm found in You
You're my Saviour
You chose me before the world
and You know my name

I will go with You
through the valley
I will soar above every mountain
I will trust Your word
deep within my heart
I will live for You

and I know my future's in Your hand
ALL of my hopes and dreams and plan
You gave me strength to live
and faith to succeed
I believe in You
because You believed in me.....

Basic Life Principles.....

So anyway i attended a basic life principles seminar for a day today.. learnt about relationships and how courtship should be the way BGR's are supposed to be, rather than dating.. it actually makes sense since i've been so sick of seeing other friends relationships come and go like it was just as though changing clothes or something...

He defined dating as a relationship between two people where self-interest plays a bigger role rather than the needs of the opposite, and mostly initiated without both families knowledge and blessing and done with the intention of 'getting to know the other person only'.

Courtship was defined as the spiritual act in which blessings are given from both families and trust and accountability between the girls father and the guy are strong and the intention is leading towards engagement and marriage..

when hearing this i was like.. whoa.. i have really sinned! lol! but seriously, how often do we attend 'BGR' sessions and don't seem to get the point that BGR's are meant to last till marriage and not be treated as 'oh i like u, u like me, let's get together' kind of thing.. At my age (which is not too old.. yet..) we are to just have lots of friends and build close friendships with everybody and not limit ourselves just because of peer pressure (know what i mean?) seriously, when i had a girlfriend it was like.. close friends started ignoring me and probably i lost the chance to share the gospel because i only had one focus in mind.. her.

Face it, God should be the centre of our lives, He should be our source of satisfaction, our source of comfort, our hope, our joy, our everything!! If you're my age, marriage is still far far away.. am i ready to have a relationship that would last ALL the way and still love her the same way i did then when i get married? now i know SOME people actually can last all the way.. Kudos to them! but face it.. divorce rates are superbly increasing.. why? They have not found genuine love.

Love is patient, Love is kind, It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. (1 Corinthians 13:4-8)

Here's my thoughts of a perfect relationship and hopefully my future one: I love God, She loves God, let's Love God together ;) Our relationship is going to be centered around God and not around each other only. God is going to be the factor that bring us together, both my parents and her parents would bless the relationship and my pastor also. Respect, trust and accountability are going to be key elements, and i shall be the one that opens the car door for her ;)

Ok i know that sounded cheesy but it's ok.. I've already pledged to remain single till 21.. even then, I'm not going to run ahead of God's timing for me or do stupid mistakes i did last time.. learn from mistakes, cherish the past, dream your tomorrows, LIVE your todays!!

I hope my post doesn't offend any couples out there, I hope you realise that relationships will not work without God in it. Your heart, whole, entire heart should be for God to give to your future one, not parts and pieces of your heart broken with each relationship failed. Even if your heart has already been broken into a million pieces now because of past relationships, God can restore, He can mend, He can heal. The worse possible thing you could now is enter into another relationship thinking that would be the answer... No my friend, God is.

I should write a book on this...

looking out my window.... planetshakers 2000

looking out my window
i see the trees blowing in the breeze
looking out my window
i see the birds flying in the sky
and i know
with just one breath u created the whole world
and i know
if i don't praise you the rocks will soon cry out
cry out cry out

praise Him, lift your voices let it ring throughout all the earth
praise Him, let all men know that Jesus Christ, He is the Lord!

(P.S 2000)

so......

the other day some of my church youths and I went to the national heart institute to pray for a guy who had a heart attack. Apparently he had 24 hours to live on one occasion and we really prayed and the next thing we knew is that he was dischaged and walking around buying food for his family or something. Praise God!

So anyway we went to the heart institute to pray for him but found out he wasnt on his bed.. apparently he got discharged again and was walking somewhere in the hospital. Me, daniel, Evangeline and Valerie was there like dunno what to do.. hanging around in a place people normally dont hang out. Daniel felt led to talk to this one chinese dude lying down on the bed nearest to us.. this guy was really open in talking about religion, Jesus, salvation, heaven and hell and stuff like that.. we actually managed to pray for him and guess what?? he said he felt a peace flowing through him as we prayed! how cool is that?! Praise God! talk about being missionaries when we are called to reach out to everybody!

So anyway after walking around for a bit we found out that our ex prime minister was in the heart institute! how cool is that?! so we semangat la wanted to meet him and pray for him. Apparently we saw his wife and relatives hanging around outside the tough security wards. Like little kids we tried to enter the ward without mentioning anything.. the guards were like, "who do u want to visit", and we were like "err.... forgot la... !" haha! ok it didnt work and my friends didnt dare to ask permission so ok la i took the lead and approaced the security guard...

me: "excuse me, can we see (stammer) dr dr dr dr doct DOCTOR M?"
1st guard: "no, go ask that other guard"
me: (same words), excuse me, can we see (stammer) dr dr drdr doct DOCTOR M?"
2nd guard: "cannot, go ask that other guard"
me: (exact same phrase with same stammering..)
3rd guard: who are you?
daniel: err.. we are from the church
guard: NO!

so that was basically how our adventure went... it was fun non the less ;)

GET REAL!!

It's time for the Christian youths to rise up!
It's time for the Christian youths to make a stand for Christ!
It's time for the Christian youths to stop being hypocrates!
It's time to get REAL!!

it's funny cuz i have this cf shirt that says 'get real' in the front.. and wherever i go, somebody always shouts in my face, "get real!!".. even pastors and youth leaders essp.. wow! what a reminder!

but it's so true.. honestly i'm so sick of seeing christians viewed as hypocrates for compromising with the world and not living what they preach.. even worse when they cause a stumble of another with their actions and daily living...

It's time to walk the talk and not just talk the talk!! actions speak loader than words! There was a quote i heard, "preach the word! if neccessary, use words!" Your life should show Christ! we are christians only when we are CHRIST-like!

We are in the world, yet not OF the world.. we can and should make a difference wherever we are.. it's time to shine! it's time to rise!

GET REAL!!

Thinking of you......

A song i wrote and composed in 2004 while overlooking the swimming pool!, sang in my youth concert...

I'm thinking of you
I'm loving every moment of it
When I look at the sky so blue
And feel that you love me so much

Looking at the stars
or even at the open seas
I feel that you are there
You're so totally awesome X2

PC- My saviour and my friend
come mold my heart within me
to live a life wholly for you

C- My Jesus you are everything to me
You loved me so much you gave it all for me
I love you from the bottom of my heart
I just wanna live for you X2

messed up no more....

a song written by the trios... wei chin, mcd, japh...

woke up in the morning
put on my face
the one that's gonna get me through another day
I thought i had it all
had it all complete
but then I found there was this emptyness in me

PC- How could I be so blind not to see
The saviour who loved me so
and died for me...

C- Because of you
you died for me and you set me free
Because of you
my life is redeemed and i'm messed up no more

Looking out my window
gazing at the stars
could there be something more to this life?
I looked for answers
I always asked why
and then I found something I can't deny

B- I can believe the way you gave it all for me
Though I may stumble and fall
you pick me up