Update Update!!

It's been a tough journey for me recently, having a million thoughts buzzing through my brain at the moment, thought I'd stop and chill and update this bloggie after some time...

Am still studying at Monash Uni (well at least trying to - I need the motivation to press on! Lord please grant me the motivation and strength to persevere! please?)

Have been busying myself with some activities and so forth, kinda more to keep me going ~ Ministering through Adventure Programmes (MAPs) has been a great outlet to learn skills and exercise a little on weekends (mountain biking anyone?); Local Youth Prayer Gathering (LYPGs) and prayer meetings in Monash Christian Fellowship (MCF!) and at home has been keeping my spiritual life on check (oh btw there's a young adults prayer meeting at my house on tuesday nights if anyone reading this is interested :D). Have been busy at CF and Monash as usual, with coffee ministry on mondays and prayer everyday; and finally the never ending assignments......

For some reason I've still found time to sleep quite a bit. And write a song recently (weird huh?). I guess that's what happens when there's just too many things I have to do, I just end up trying to sleep it all away.... and then it reappears once I wake up.. sigh. The funniest bit was trying to write an essay on motivation and finding myself needing the motivation to do it! (how ironic!). I still find myself thinking a lot about many things, fighting various spiritual battles and kicking myself out of 'emo-ness' (thank God for the strength He's been so graciously pouring out - I love You Dad!)

I wonder who would still actually view my blog, but I guess I just want to say to everybody (who I know or you know me or have yet to), I'm sorry for not being a good friend (and by that I mean by not making the time and effort to spend time with you, get to know you better, or just have been busying myself with so many things). I really want to make an effort to catch up with old and new friends, chill out hang out yam cha go jamming or futsal but have been selfishly kept to my own activities and efforts. I'm really sorry and I want to be a better brother (in Christ) and friend. I want to encourage all of you and help you grow in your walk with God. Sometimes when I shy away, don't reply sms's or dissapear all of a sudden has been because I most probably am battling stuff inside me (feelings, dissapointments, fear) and I know I should not. But I shall be real and honest, I need help (in organising my life, in conquering habits and living a God-centered and People-loving life). I appreaciate inputs and encouragements!

I don't have anything much left to say. Other than let's pray for each other. I know many youth and young adults out there (you may be included) are facing different battles of your own. I can't say I know the answer to your problems or can help you directly but I will make time to pray for you. God has been teaching me a lot on trusting in Him, focusing on Him and relying on His strength and guidance. We really can't do this thing called 'life' on our own.. we'll just get tired and burned out at the end the more we try. To those who have yet to know this 'Jesus' I'm so crazy about, I pray that you will get to know Him, the saviour who's been keeping me alive and is the reason I breathe. I will be more than happy to tell you why I'm so passionate about Him.

On a lighter note, the Joy of the Lord is my strength!! I will persevere and press on towards the upward prize in Christ Jesus! I will overcome and conquer the battles as I trust in my supreme commander up there! Please nudge back a reply if any of you agree with what I'm feeling right now! I don't want to do this alone!

To those who want to find me and am wondering where I am; or just need someone to talk to, I'm in Monash CF on wednesdays 4-7ish, monday mornings giving out coffee, at 12 noon prayers on tues, fridays; LYPGs every saturday fortnightly in People's Park Baptist Church- next one on the 25th April 11am-1pm, tuesday prayer meetings fortnightly at my house at 8pm and MAPs programmes on some weekends. Other than that, I'm mostly found at home! (besides church on sundays of course). Do call me out yam cha or rock climbing or jamming or whatever!! I malas nak organise edy (u bunch of busy people too! :p)

Take care you all and God bless!
Gal 6:2
Philp 1:6

Japh